Wow, life as we know it is about to change in a huge way. Nine months have nearly come and gone, we are going to become parents to a baby boy sometime within the next 52 days (according to my pregnancy tracker haha). Owen Asher Wells is due to arrive sometime around August 10, which just so happens to be my birthday, what a gift!
It is a strange mixture of strong emotions to think on this reality though. On one hand I am so excited. happy. elated I can barely wipe the smile off my face feeling him move around inside me. Then other days I'm so overwhelmed with fear and sobered by my own inabilities that I just can't seem to catch my breathe. This tiny human will be completely dependent upon Louden and I for it's every need, what a huge responsibility. Not only physical needs but emotional and spiritual as well. Wow. Only by God's grace and mercy will I ever be able to succeed. Praise God that He has not left me to take on this task by myself. There is so much hope in Him, I cling to His promises.
Ultimately, joy is the overwhelming emotion as we anticipate the arrival of little Owen. We can't wait to meet him, seeing his tiny face for the first time and holding him close as he breathes his first breathe of life. What a precious gift from God. Life will never be the same. :)
Monday, June 18, 2012
Sunday, February 12, 2012
A lot can happen in a year
It has been a little under a year since my last post. Wow! I am some kind of slacker. My life here in Louisville looks way different than when we first moved here a year ago, Jan 7. 2011 and it looks nothing like I had imagined.
Louden and I have been through a great bit this year and I feel like it has made us stronger both as individuals and as a couple. God has been guiding us through a valley of a year. Neither of us are working in residential treatment facilities anymore, thank goodness. The level of stress that came along with those positions was not healthy. Louden is settled in as a waitor at Outback Steakhouse and I have a few jobs in retail. It pays the bills for now but we are seeking better employment. Praying God will open some doors for us in the near future.
We moved to a better apartment that is safer and a little closer to the campus, it's a little less expensive and we have our washer and dryer hookups here!!!
I still miss home like crazy but I am getting better at coping with it. We finally found a great church to join. We actually just attended the membership class this weekend. Within the church we have also joined a Community Group that meets on tuesday nights at another member's apartment. Its like a sunday school class but more personal. We love the people there and have made some great Godly friends that encourage us and help hold us accountable. It's been such a blessing to be a part of.
In October of 2010, only days after finding out I was pregnant I miscarried the baby. It was devastating and one of the hardest moments of my life. Louden was so supportive and sweet through the whole thing and even packed me up after our visit to the doctor and drove me back to Louisiana in the middle of the night so we could mourn with our families. It was the first time I had been home since we moved here, almost 10mths of being away. I was so emotional driving into Natchitoches that early morning as we arrived, I began to cry as we crossed the Grand Ecore bridge. It felt so good to be surrounded by the familiar. It had never felt so good to hug Megan and Mama, I stopped to see them at work. Our stay was short but sweet, I felt renewed and encouraged. It was exactly what I needed.
After Louden and I returned to Louisville I found out I was pregnant again only a month after the miscarriage. It felt different finding out this time, I was stunned again but cautious this time. I was guarding my heart for fear of another miscarriage. My doctor spoke as if this pregnancy would have the same result as the first due to the closeness of the two. BUT I am now in my second trimester at 14 weeks and everything looks healthy!! Praise be to God!
Louden and I are so excited to be parents. My due date is August 10, which also happens to be my birthday :) After finding out my insurance won't cover my maternity visits I have applied for medicare and were still waiting to be approved. I was getting a little nervous about being this far along and still not having been to the doctor. Again God provided a way, the seminary clinic's lead doctor is a retired Ob/Gyn and the clinic had recently been given a sonogram machine. After speaking with the doctor there he invited me to come in and we got to see our little one for the first time on the ultrasound. He even printed us pictures! It was the most amazing feeling to see that little being moving around and seeing the flicker of the heartbeat. Any wall I had up before fell to peices as I looked at the screen and I fell in love with this little creation I am carrying. The doctor said the baby looks healthy and measured to see exactly how far along I was and guestimated my due date. He was a great doctor and man of God, so encouraging and shared in our excitement.
After such a valley of a year I am glad to look back now and see where God was always with us, working everything out to His glory. Even though it was through a lot of pain and sorrow, I know God has been growing and shaping Louden and I. And though things aren't all rainbows and sunshine now, I pray He continues to draw us closer to Himself.
Louden and I have been through a great bit this year and I feel like it has made us stronger both as individuals and as a couple. God has been guiding us through a valley of a year. Neither of us are working in residential treatment facilities anymore, thank goodness. The level of stress that came along with those positions was not healthy. Louden is settled in as a waitor at Outback Steakhouse and I have a few jobs in retail. It pays the bills for now but we are seeking better employment. Praying God will open some doors for us in the near future.
We moved to a better apartment that is safer and a little closer to the campus, it's a little less expensive and we have our washer and dryer hookups here!!!
I still miss home like crazy but I am getting better at coping with it. We finally found a great church to join. We actually just attended the membership class this weekend. Within the church we have also joined a Community Group that meets on tuesday nights at another member's apartment. Its like a sunday school class but more personal. We love the people there and have made some great Godly friends that encourage us and help hold us accountable. It's been such a blessing to be a part of.
In October of 2010, only days after finding out I was pregnant I miscarried the baby. It was devastating and one of the hardest moments of my life. Louden was so supportive and sweet through the whole thing and even packed me up after our visit to the doctor and drove me back to Louisiana in the middle of the night so we could mourn with our families. It was the first time I had been home since we moved here, almost 10mths of being away. I was so emotional driving into Natchitoches that early morning as we arrived, I began to cry as we crossed the Grand Ecore bridge. It felt so good to be surrounded by the familiar. It had never felt so good to hug Megan and Mama, I stopped to see them at work. Our stay was short but sweet, I felt renewed and encouraged. It was exactly what I needed.
After Louden and I returned to Louisville I found out I was pregnant again only a month after the miscarriage. It felt different finding out this time, I was stunned again but cautious this time. I was guarding my heart for fear of another miscarriage. My doctor spoke as if this pregnancy would have the same result as the first due to the closeness of the two. BUT I am now in my second trimester at 14 weeks and everything looks healthy!! Praise be to God!
Louden and I are so excited to be parents. My due date is August 10, which also happens to be my birthday :) After finding out my insurance won't cover my maternity visits I have applied for medicare and were still waiting to be approved. I was getting a little nervous about being this far along and still not having been to the doctor. Again God provided a way, the seminary clinic's lead doctor is a retired Ob/Gyn and the clinic had recently been given a sonogram machine. After speaking with the doctor there he invited me to come in and we got to see our little one for the first time on the ultrasound. He even printed us pictures! It was the most amazing feeling to see that little being moving around and seeing the flicker of the heartbeat. Any wall I had up before fell to peices as I looked at the screen and I fell in love with this little creation I am carrying. The doctor said the baby looks healthy and measured to see exactly how far along I was and guestimated my due date. He was a great doctor and man of God, so encouraging and shared in our excitement.
After such a valley of a year I am glad to look back now and see where God was always with us, working everything out to His glory. Even though it was through a lot of pain and sorrow, I know God has been growing and shaping Louden and I. And though things aren't all rainbows and sunshine now, I pray He continues to draw us closer to Himself.
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